Saturday, March 20, 2021

If These Walls Could Speak

I've been pondering home a lot lately.  How people live -- how they spend their time when in their most comfortable spaces.  As I drove by houses, I often wonder about the families inside, just going about the day to day, from mundane to thrilling, sorrowful to joyful.  So much of our lives are spent in our homes - hopefully our houses cradle us -- they give us refuge from the world, become our safe space to land.

A couple of years ago, I blogged about our dining room (you can read that here) and all the memories ensconced inside that one little room.  I also blogged about our recliner and all the memories I have in that very chair.  Since I am prone to nostalgia (surprise, surprise!), it made me think about all the memories our whole house holds - some I remember, many I don't (sniff, sniff), PLUS all the events that took place in our house before we moved in!  If these walls could speak, indeed!

So as I'm beginning to embark on exploring the stories our house holds, a few come to mind immediately:

  • the early morning sound of padded feet, tucked into footie jammies, looking for mommy
  • a bumped head while playing a crazy game with brothers
  • cries of elation over good news - a desired part in a play, a good report card, college acceptances, news of vacation plans
  • cries of sadness - mourning our miscarriages, the passing of loved ones, broken hearts, disappointments
  • newborn baby cries - five times as each of our little ones were welcomed home into this house
  • mamma tears as the children begin to fly from the nest
  • a casual "I love you mommy" or "you're the best daddy ever!" from a tiny, precious voice
  • hugs, kisses, cuddles, wrestling matches, tickle attacks
  • toddler baths, full of splashes and shrieks of joy
  • teenager feet pounding up and down the stairs
  • love -- lots and lots of love
If these walls could speak, oh how I would listen.  I would soak it all up - the good and bad.  These walls have been our safe place; our sacred space for 23 years.  So much of our history I have forgotten, no matter how idealistic I was - "I'll never forget this!" and how carelessly I took for granted what I would now see as precious.  

Maybe they can speak, a little bit anyway.  They speak through our family photos, our journals, our shared remembrances.  It's not everything, but it's a lot.  And I'm awfully grateful for these walls.

Wednesday, March 17, 2021

Cheers to 21 Years!

21 years ago tonight, I was holding my newborn, our sweet firstborn daughter.  I was smitten with her and couldn't believe God had entrusted her to us.  She was precious and adorable and tiny and perfect.

And I didn't know what in the heck I was doing.

I remember thinking - they're going to let us take her home?  Do they realize we are not qualified in any way to care for her? 

But we somehow learned what we could and winged the rest, and today she's 21.  And by the grace of God, even amidst our inadequacies,  she has turned into a beautiful, strong and capable young woman.

Here are the top 21 reasons I love this girl in no particular order:

  • her peace-loving heart
  • laughing and laughing and laughing with her
  • her intelligence - she never ceases to amaze me!
  • we can share shoes and clothes (though she is prone to "borrowing". . .forever!)
  • she loves Chick Fil A and asks for it whenever possible
  • her strong faith, which shapes everything she does
  • her flexibility and ability to go with the flow
  • she's a great sibling to her brothers and sister - to hear her tell it, she raised them herself!
  • she is often told she is my twin and she doesn't seem to mind!
  • she loves kids and will be an amazing teacher
  • she tolerates me and humors me when I talk about things she has no interest in (unlike her bros)
  • she's dramatic!
  • her confidence - I am always impressed with what she's capable of doing
  • she watches all my old favorite movies with me
  • we take lots of walks and talk together
  • she's selfless
  • she's very tolerant of all the crazy in our house
  • she's responsible and trustworthy and has been since she was little
  • her ability to navigate difficult situations with poise
  • her love of Shadow puppy
  • she never fails to wow me in everything she does
I'm so thankful God gifted us with this amazing girl!  I can't wait to see what God has in store for her future!